Less Traversed

Amanda B's blog(one of my favorites) had a very interesting post called "Less Traveled". Here is my comment and a continuation. (I don't normally do this)

Whether there is fate or not doesn't really prepare you for what is coming.

You go throughout your whole life dealing with assholes or people who are just plain amazing. All the while these people mold you into who you are the next day, and the day after that.

You deal with these things either the right way or the wrong way. You are still you. Yeah, they change your ideas and how you act, but it's still you.

Then you go and find someone who has the biggest monster grab on you. The one that you never thought was 'the one' or could be. The one that molds every fiber of your love (and hate).

Suddenly you can't seem to get enough and you love to be around him. He knows how to push your buttons and you know how to push his. You love the little arguments and the fact that you can train him. You hate that he likes to do this or that but you deal with it. After all, he makes you into who you are today and who you will be tomorrow.

You are still you, just someone better.

I know it sounds bad but everyone affects us the same. No, really. From the dick that messed around on you to the person you cut off on the highway.

Be aware, I think. Be aware of who's doing what to you and what you are doing to whom. If you are more mindful of what's happening you can make better sense of it when you laying on your kitchen floor crying. Hell, maybe you won't even be on your kitchen floor. Maybe you'll say, "Aw fuck, I shouldn't have let him do this", "I shouldn't have told her that" and call it a day.